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Gue bukan siapa-siapa. Numpang sejenak untuk berbagi kisah mengenai perjalanan seorang kekasih. Walaupun LDR, tapi gue tetap anteng mengiringi pacar. Begitu pula saat pacar mulai jarang menghubungi gue. Pikiran gue tetap positif, karena gue pikir juga dia sibuk sih.

Malam Minggu juga gue telepon pacar tapi cuma diangkat sebentar. Katanya, dia lagi jalan bareng temannya. Syukurlah pacar bisa sebentar keluar dari rutinitasnya. Agak malam sedikit, gue telepon berkali-kali tapi nggak diangkat. Gue semakin khawatir dong.

Gue akui akhir-akhir emang sikap gue nyebelin. Padahal si pacar sudah berusaha meyakinkan gue kalo doi nggak ke mana-mana juga selain kerja. Introspeksi jelas. Gue merasa bersalah karena pacar sering komplain terhadap sikap gue. Rasa insecure gue terasa berlebihan.

Subuh, gue telepon pacar, aktif tapi nggak diangkat. Sebab socmed-nya tewas, gue sms, kasih tau pacar kalau gue mau ke kota dia. Sempat nunggu beberapa lama dan nggak ada balasan, gue akhirnya ke sana dengan perlengkapan komplet. Apalagi dia bilang hari Minggu akan padat dengan kerjaan. Inisiatif gue pergi ke sana adalah buat menjenguk dan kasih semangat.

Ya, bodohnya gue selalu malas-malasan setiap kali pacar suruh belajar setir mobil. Gue cukup senang dengan adanya driver yang siap antar ke mana-mana. Tapi karena hari libur, akhirnya gue putuskan untuk naik motor. Angkutan umum sejenis travel, bus atau kereta? Nggak lah, karena gue pernah naik salah satunya menuju kota pacar dan bosan mampus karena haru nunggu travel yang lama banget. Tanpa pikir panjang, gue juga nggak khawatir dengan jarak kota kami yang terhitung sekitar 168 kilometer, atau sekitar 5 jam perjalanan jika ditempuh dengan mobil.

Sepanjang jalan gue nyanyi-nyanyi bahagia sambil dengerin lagu. Jelas bahagia karena gue mau ketemu pacar. Gue beliin novel yang pengen dia baca. Niat utama gue jelas untuk memperbaiki hubungan kami yang sering ribut.

Gue memacu motor 150 cc dengan kecepatan 110km/jam. Dengan jaket tebal, ransel, botol air mineral, powerbank, dan pertalite pastinya. Bersin-bersin di jalan, kelaperan sampai deg-degan karena harus waspada hindarin mobil gede-gede, semuanya gue nggak anggap masalah. Bodo amat, yang penting cepat sampai di kota pacar kudu dan itu berarti gue harus gas pol.

Sepanjang perjalanan, gue sudah merancang gimana nanti gue akan senyum dan bayangin ekspresi dia. Pasti rasanya ini kayak kejutan buat dia. Sudah hampir 3 minggu juga kami nggak ketemu. Gue pengen lihat manjanya dia, serunya dia, dan asyiknya dia kalo lagi sama gue.

Gue nggak berhenti buat sarapan, kecuali isi bensin dan setoran ke toilet. Sudah gitu aja dan langsung kebut lagi. Gue nggak sabar pengen ketemu pacar. Hampir sepanjang jalan gue selalu ambil sisi kanan supaya bisa cepat buat salip mobil-mobil. Jari selalu siap di kopling sama rem. Sampai beberapa kali roda depan menyentuh bemper belakang mobil karena mengerem dadakan.

Capek? Jelas banget. Sebenarnya gue juga takut ngebut begitu. Apalagi lihat motor gue rasanya kok kayak mau terbang aja. Tapi, lagi-lagi itu gue lakukan karena nggak sabar pengen ketemu pacar.

Sampe tikungan cabang, gue ambil sisi kiri. Semakin jauh, jalanan semakin sepi. Ternyata benar feeling gue. NYASAR! 10 kilometer terlelewat dan gue harus putar balik. Gue coba telpon pacar nanya jalan. Ternyata HP yang satu lagi mati (FYI, pacar gue punya 3 HP). Ya udah gue coba nanya sama warung kecil pinggir jalan. Bener gue nyasar dan balik tancap gas lagi menuju jalan yang kanan.

Singkat cerita, akhirnya sampailah gue di kota pacar. Deg-degan bahagia  rasanya karena perjalanan bisa gue tempuh dengan durasi 4 jam lebih dikit. Bersyukur berangkat subuh jalanan rada sepi. Sampai di kota pacar, gue menepi minum air mineral dan mencoba telepon HP pacar lagi. Ternyata HP dia mati semua :). Gue merasa semakin deg-degan nggak karuan. Gue SMS, WA, tapi juga nggak ada hasil. Pikiran gue tetap positif, yah barangkali pemadaman listrik sampe pacar nggak sempat charge HP.

Yaudah gue langsung menuju rumah doi. Pasang tampang manis dan bahagia pasti dia nggak akan nyangka gue datang bawain novel pesanan. Sampai di sana, gue ketok pintu, eh yang keluar roommate doi. Gue tanya pacar gue di mana. Di situ terjadi obrolan singkat dan padat, dan secara nggak langsung bikin gue kaget. Sampai akhirnya gue putuskan untuk titip novel ke roommate pacar.
Gue pamit balik. Sebelumnya roommate dia sempat berujar,
“Kaak..”
“Iya?”
“Ati-ati ya…”
“Oh iya, thanks, ya.”
Semoga roommate pacar mengucapkan itu bukan karena lihat rasa kecewa gue, karena gue sudah berusaha semaksimal mungkin untuk menjaga supaya wajah tetap santai dan biasa aja.

Bagian obrolan itu harus gue skip demi menjaga anu dan anu. Setelah dari sana mata gue tiba-tiba berkaca-kaca dan gue menepi di pinggir jalan depan TK. Tanpa aba-aba, air mata gue tumpah. Dada gue kerasa sesak dan nyeri. Rasanya pedih dan tiba-tiba hancur semua. Gue nangis. Badan gue gemetar sampe jari tangan dan kaki kerasa dingin. Nggak tau mau ke mana lagi.

Gue putusin buat pulang saat itu juga. Dalam kondisi masih menangis gue harus  mampir beli BBM lagi. Masih terisak-terisak. gue cuma kasih kode ke masnya buat isi full tanpa buka kaca helm. Helm merah yang sengaja gue beli buat pacar. Gue yakin masnya tau gue lagi nangis. Tapi mau gimana, tangki motor gue kosong dan harus lanjut perjalanan pulang.

Hati gue berantakan. Harapan gue seketika hancur. Semakin hancur karena gue bener-bener nggak nyangka hasilnya yang gue dapat akan seperti ini. Gue berusaha masih mikir positif. Tetap mikir positif. Gue tetap memutuskan untuk pulang dengan kondisi terisak. Pikiran gue kacau. Tanpa istirahat sedikit pun gue lanjutkan perjalanan karena gue pikir nggak ada gunanya bertahan di kota itu. Gue tau gue akan baik-baik aja.

Mata gue basah dan pandangan buram karena air mata. Gue sempet liat ada batu besar di jalan tapi karena blank dan masih kepikiran kenapa bisa sampai terjadi seperti ini. Kecepatan motor gue di atas 100, gue akhirnya menabrak batu itu dan dengan kondisi stang motor yang nggak kokoh akhirnya gue terpelanting. Bahu gue terbentur aspal. BBM motor tumpah di jalan sampe jaket gue rusak kegesek aspal. Spion pecah, ban depan miring. Motor di atas kaki gue ketahan pedal. Untungnya mobil di belakang gue jalan lambat dan di arah lawan cuma ada motor.

Suara benturan yang keras membuat bapak-bapak yang mau sholat ke mesjid langsung lari berusaha menolong gue. Gue dibantu dan disuruh beristirahat di teras mesjid. Gue nangis sejadi-jadinya bukan karena luka kecelakaan tapi masih aja gue kepikiran kejadian sebelum kecelakaan. Gue nggak pernah niat buat mencelakakan diri. Apalagi, gue inget emak gue janda.

Gue nangis dan keluarin HP yang lecet bagian pinggirnya karena kegesek aspal dalam kantong jeans. Gue cuma kabarin beberapa orang teman saja. Masih panik antara kaki gue yang sakit dan motor gue yang nggak bisa idup.

Ya, gue jauh-jauh datang dengan banyak harapan dan harus menerima kekalahan yang sampe bikin gue sebegini jatuhnya. Gue nangis melihat gimana nggak nyangka bakal seburuk ini. Gue nggak kasih kabar lagi ke pacar, karena gue nggak pengen mengusik dia dulu.

Gue masih mikirin gimana caranya gue pulang dengan kondisi benar-benar payah. Rasanya gue seperti nggak utuh lagi. Pengen rasanya gue nangis kencang lagi, tapi malu. Apalagi orang kampung sana baik banget bawa gue ke tukang pijat, dan mereka bahkan mengiringi pulang ke kota gue bareng kenalan gue yang ada di sekitar sana. Perjalanan pulang makan waktu hampir 7 jam lebih.

Kejadian yang sudah lama banget gue alami. Yang pasti gue seneng dia baik-baik saja. Gue sudah melakukan perjuangan paling total. Entahlah nggak tau lagi gimana menggambarkan kondisi gue. Semoga tidak ada lagi orang sebodoh gue yang mengabaikan intuisi.

–Ditulis untuk mengenang kebodohan gue–

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